Since everyone seems to be here:

I am offically moving my /livejournal/ blog to here :) Maybe this way I can actually get some feedback thats not my boyfriend?

Anyways, Here are all my previous posts, including tonight:




I deleted my orginal post :P
April 29th, 2007 (02:56 am)

I just deleted my orginal post, for well, I guess for reasons unknown to you :P. I wanted it to be on a happier note...and that was some negativity that was really unessicary towards a generalization of people that wasn't fair.ANYWAY- Brian and I met with Father Fryar on Thursday. It was really cool! I am going to be taking "classes" from him, and reading and stuffs. I am really excited. I asked Linda and David *(Brian's Parents)* to be my God Parents for the ceremony. I am waiting to hear back from them sunday or monday about what they have decided. I hope they say yes, they are people I look up to and admire and respect. They have been there through some rough times in my life, and I know that I betrayed them at one point, and at the time I honestly thought that was the right choice...anyway that's a whole nother subject, but my point is that they are really great :) I am so blessed already to have them in my life. Brian's asleep now, actually, I am at work...for some crazy reason, I volunteered for this random shift to be added on to my normal one....Oh yeah, I'm broke :-P. Anyway, this is supposed to be my religious blog, about my journey....but yeah...I know I'm straying a lot, its 3am, I haven't slept but 3 hours in the last ...two days with no sleep in sight. My minds a bit loopy around the edges. Hell, I think its actually bouncing up and down!Anyway! So, as the Pope starts to finalize the documents which would bring the traditonal mass back into practice, I feel have one thing to say. Brian and I talked about it.Any bishop who doesn't support the Pope and doesn't comply with the document, should be excommunicated. We need some serious bishops in the united states, ones that care, and are interested in whats best for the church, not keeping up with mainstream fundamentalism. Well....I'm fading with my energy to keep typing..More perhaps at a later hour,Aprill


Wow, its been awhile.
April 14th, 2007 (09:36 am)
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Due to many factors, Brian's parents coming to visit, started a new job...you know..life happened.Anyway, we have been regularly attending mass now, and it really makes me feel a lot better. I know I am not "offically" catholic or anything, but its like...going home after a long days work. It just feels right.So, this week, I am going to contact the Latin mass organization that will help me, hopefully fufill my RCIA classes so that next Easter, I can be a "true" Catholic.Soy, Moy Catolico :P (I am very Catholic). Its really nice here at my new job, having respect for my religious beliefs and allowing me to leave work on time on Sundays in order to go to church.Well more later, I actually have some work to do now :)


I was thinking.
January 20th, 2007 (10:27 am)

So my boss yesterday told me I had to work 1-6pm either Saturday or Sunday. I told him Saturday because I go to church on Sunday. So I was thinking, can they fire you or anything like that if you refuse to work on Sundays? I mean its the holy day, and you aren't supposed to work. I mean I wouldn't mind working after mass. I just...don't think I should have to miss Mass because I work Saturday night and Sunday morning. Does anyone know, if legally, they can do anything if you refuse because of church?Curious,Aprill


Okay, I am back :)
January 14th, 2007 (06:42 pm)
current mood: contemplative
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If you are thinking of becoming Catholic and you just want something to listen to, that discusses the differences between Catholics and Mormons, I have a great podcast for you to listen to.http://catholicmormon.libsyn.com/These people are awesome, down to earth and just easy to listen to. I know that its helping Brian and I talk about a lot of things, especially what's important to us, and our past religious experiences. So I offer you this, so that you too can listen, and maybe you can get something out of it too :).Also, I have a prayer request for you. My friend Kearna has lost two people she loves in less than a year. She has lost her grandfather and her father. This is a really difficult time for her, so I ask that you pray for and for some peace for her grieving family.I have a lost more on my mind, so bear with me :) So, today we went to a Latin New Order Mass, which is different from the Tridentine Mass, and I don't have the details on how and why they are different, other than my own person experience. Anyway, it actually was kind of lame. I liked the New Order, but it lacked....respect for the Mass it self, it was in this monitone voice....not even any chanting...nothing. I felt like I didn't even attend mass today. It was really disappointing. ::pauses to check on dinner:: (It's not done, if you are curious lol).Anyway, I stray from my original point I suppose. I didn't feel His presence today until we went into the adoration chapel. I have no idea why, maybe because I prayed after mass, and said that I needed to feel His presence....I can't explain that need, it was just a spiritual need. That is what is so important to me at the Catholic Church is the presence of Christ himself. I don't know how to explain that to someone who isn't Catholic or doesn't attend a Catholic Mass. If you ever!!! want to experience the most beautiful service you have ever seen, go to the Easter Vigil Mass. You will be moved. I cried, and it was the first time in my life that I TRULY, Understood the presence of Christ...Well, I am off to ponder my day and the beautiful walk on the mountains.Peace be with you,Aprill****************************Here's A Poem I wrote*************************Walked outside with the light on my face,wondering if I had begun to fall from your grace.My mind wonders off to ponder the years,still standing keeping me from my fears.Walked outside with the light at my side,Knowing that I betrayed myself on the inside.My mind wonders why I just have begun to see,when you have never forgotten or left me.He's been my shining star,He's been my rock when I was weak.He holds me up when I can not stand.He loves me when I turn my back.You have always been there,No what what I've said or done.All the years i have had my funNow After all you have helped me through..what can i do for you...When I cry at night I see your light,Knowing that I can be saved.When I see them disgracing your name,Takes all I have not to scream.Walked outside with the light at my side,Knowing that I betrayed myself on the inside.My mind wonders why I just have begun to see,when you have never forgotten or left me.Walked outside with the light at my back,finally understanding all that I lack,My head starts to clear and I begun to know,that I have the power to save my own soul.One of these days I will wake up,From being so selfish.I will look to you and smile,instead of asking why.One of these days I will be happy,while knowing you are by my side.I will look to you and praise,instead of wondering how.


Movies: The Davinci Code and Therese
January 14th, 2007 (02:18 pm)

So, I come to you upon watching two very very different movies. One being the most...annoying movie filled with such heresies and facts that even the writer can not keep straight, and the other seemingly unimportant, until you begin to think about it.What does this mean to offer it up in a little way? To be so humble as to take blame for something you did not do, and not think about it again, other than to offer it as a suffering. To be so humble, and selfless is so rare, which makes sense why they have made this movie about this young girl, who died at the age of 15. Who was so sick, and yet, did not once blame God, or deny him, but to out loud say she loves God, that her God has not left her. To pray and to love him no matter....even on her death bed.I only wish that one day my whole heart can be offered up, as I fear I am learning that I do deny God full entry into my heart. I go now to further reflect....this is more than I can type...Aprill


First Post
January 14th, 2007 (02:17 pm)

Hey friends! Been a long time, not that I am sure anyone really even reads this :P. I have decided that this will be my place to voice how I feel religiously, and my journey on my recently choice of becoming Catholic. If you wish to ask me questions, or debate that is fine, but do so in a RESPECTFUL manner or I'll just block you ;). I am a patient and open minded person, but NO ONE has the right to disrespect anyone elses religious beliefs as, that is in the bible itself, "Judge not, least be judged yourself."So, on that note, I bring you my first, religious entry of many to come, and I hope that you will read it and take it only as it is, a persons journey to becoming Catholic.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~I woke up this morning, feeling again, as if I had been hysterically crying. I have had this dream for the last three nights, and then it dawned on me that it was after the night, I said outloud that I wanted to be Catholic. Some could take this as a sign, that I don't want to be Catholic, but I look at it, after much remember this time, that God is in my dream, and I am crying for betraying him in my heart, and for being so sinful. I am FULL of mortal sin, and if I died today, I can only hope the Lord would have mercy on my soul. Not to mention, I have never been baptized. Orginal Sin, FTL. :P. I know that in my dream, I am realizing what it means to hurt...to feel that seperation from God, and I woke up physically aching. Which is totally weird. All in all, I woke up, and prayed. I prayed for the strength to take this journey, for it is a long, long road, and a never ending journey to the Truth of God.I watched some CWN (Christian World News) channel last night, eh. I have to admit, although I enjoy some of the programs Brian watches on EWTN, this channel we watched last night, made me laugh. It's one thing to expose the herisy of the book, "The Da Vinci Code." But its another, to go to the lengths this show did. The show after, was a very "general" Christian look at the herisies in the book, which is important. It wasn't towards any specific religion, leaving it open to the normal mind, and the doubtful. However, I know some of you are looking at me like I am crazy, because it is listed as a "fiction" book. I have something to say, PFFFT. IF you believe that after reading the first page, which is listed as FACT...well then your silly! Especially since there is a lawsuit because this man didn't even use his own ideas, but the work of another man who CLEARLY states his book was for entertainment, and has NO Facts in it. Anyway, any scholar, and is recongized by society discredits all these said "Facts" making this book, a heresy but and OUTRAGE!I don't know too many of the details, just the things I saw on the TV last night. I might actually go read the book, only to provoke me into more research for the Truth. The best thing to have in a battle in knowledge, and I am in the battle of the century for my own soul. If any of you have read the book, feel free to leave some opinions as I am OPEN minded, just like I said, please don't disrespect me, or my believes. I already know what SOME people think of Catholics: Mary and Pope Worshippers, Saint Worshippers, Pope is the Anti-Christ (Ironically, Jesus gave us our first pope, Peter(the rock)), you have to pay to get into heaven, etc, etc. So don't even bother if thats your thoughts when reading this. I will respect your opinion, and expect you to do the same. Also, if you do want to tell me WHY you believe, I do NOT accept Bible quotes as your opinion on you believes, only as a fact to support your opinion...if you can't understand what I just said, then silly head, go post somewhere else ;)Anyway, thats all for now, as I am not use to typing this much, and my wrists and hand are already starting to hurt. (not to mention I scrubbed the fridge, tub and floor yesterday) Ack! :)Servo per Dilligo,With love, I protect.Aprill


In the process.
January 14th, 2007 (02:15 pm)

I am going to move all my religious blogs to this one as the name makes more sense...So...keep checking back :)